Trusting the Process

Beyoncé was not built in a day. And neither are you. This is the time of year where we do a lot of reflecting. We’re figuring out what we learned this year, what wish we could have done, the highs/lows of 2017. We think about what we want to change and how we can apply our lessons to the new year. I wanna start off by saying, cut yourself some slack and enjoy the beauty of becoming.

When you look back at this year begin with thanking yourself and appreciate for how far you’ve come. Regardless on what you went through, give thanks. Gratitude is everything. And practicing it on a daily basis is a GAME CHANGER. So write down 10 things that you are grateful for that happened this year. Right now. If you can’t write it down, close your eyes real quick and think about the 10 things.

2018, I invite you to believe in yourself. You have to have faith. To have faith is to have a deep sense of trust in what cannot be seen. But exactly what does having faith look like? It’s allowing the Universe to move through you to you. It’s meeting the Universe halfway by putting your desires into actions. It’s connecting with what your soul desires. Having faith is something I’ve been struggling with a lot lately. Especially in these dark, dry, cold, winter months. I suffer from seasonal depression so it’s been really hard to see the light, to feel ambitious or goal oriented in depressing weather.

Then I look at my life and there’s a huge disconnect between where I think I should be and where I am right now. It’s been difficult to keep faith in what I feel is coming for me when I look around and see quite the opposite. It’s frustrating. I imagine myself meditating in the Tanah Lot water temple in Bali feeling the breeze of the waves brush against my tender skin... yet I open my eyes and see my little, tight room in Brooklyn heading to work at this super repetitive, robotic, pessimistic job. Talk about upsetting!

And how was I supposed to have faith in something I’ve never actually seen before? Trust. The answer is trust. Trust yourself. Trust your dreams. To trust the process, wholeheartedly, is to not need to know what is unfolding or why, but to simply be there in the present to experience it. Being present is type difficult yet critical. Because the past already happened and the future didn’t even come yet so the present moment is really the only moment we can control. One of my favorite books ever, The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle talks about being more conscious with our thoughts and emotions in the present moment instead of worrying about the past and future -- two moments we have no control over.

And how do you stay in the present moment? Breathing. There is power in breathing. Deep, long breaths help me ground my thoughts and calm my heart down. Feeling grateful in the present moment manifests your future to come to life. You must trust and have faith that there is a divine plan moving through you and your life at every moment. Every moment is setting you up for an even bigger moment later.

I extremely hard worked on transforming my thoughts. Practicing gratitude every single day forced me to see the good in everything. It started to shape my current situation in a positive light. I am no longer looking at my environment and my job as negative but instead a beautiful and necessary means to an end. I appreciate having a place to call my home and having a consistent source of income. I hate to say this because it’s super cliche and annoying to hear butttt… things can be worse and remaining blessed through it all is a superpower I’m tryna have all 2018.

I’d say my ideal version of success is getting to the point where I no longer allow my outside world to control my inside world but to instead have my inside world control my outside world. I no longer want to allow my my environment, my job, or where I currently am in life to affect my mind, my spirit, my universe. But instead, I’d like to practice using my mind, my spirit, and my universe to transform my reality, my environment, my job, my life. And I’m looking forward to this shift in energy.

But here’s the gag. The secret to having it all is knowing you already do. So even if you’re in the worst rut ever right now and you feel really stuck… focus on finding both solace in gratitude through it all. Be present with it. This is exactly where you’re supposed to be right now to get to where you’re ultimately going. You needed this moment now for your future moments to thrive the way that they’re supposed to. You might not feel it happening but the Universe is moving through you. The Universe is like breathing. You don’t need to hear your breath to know that breathing is what’s keeping you alive just like you don’t need to see the Universe to know its actually working to keep your dream alive. Even if you can’t see it now, it’s working. Trust your fckn process.

I believe in you.