for so long, i thought my value lived inside of productivity. i’ve always felt like i had to do something to be someone. i filled every quiet moment with noise, every pocket of time with scrolling, always responding to texts very quickly, a task, a distraction, it was always something. i started misunderstanding the difference between being tired and being overstimulated.
i didn’t realize how long i’d long i’ve been performing. they say that some years are questions and some years are answers. this year was an answer: telling me to stop shrinking myself into role i never even auditioned for.
lately, i’ve been seeing a lot of ‘personal curriculums’ and all of these challenges to be better towards the end of the year so we can start 2026 on top. it’s easy to feel like what do i need to fix today? i need to change my habits, my eating, my morning routine, my workouts, my journaling practice, my emotions. everything feels like it’s under constant surveillance.
spring isn’t just a season. t’s a biological invitation. things that were dormant start moving again. so if Q1 felt abnormally heavy, slow, scattered and overwhelming, that’s winter doing exactly what winter does and this is the beginning of you finding your footing for this year. Q2 is where things turn up a bit.