october feels silent.

idk if it’s just me but october is feeling real silent. getting quiet, tuning in, and learning how to listen to what my life, my body, and my mind need right now. it’s almost as if the air is asking me questions and giving me time to answer with intention. i do not feel this need to force things, to talk too much or to push right now. i just want to listen and to listen with care. i want to make space to receive, to process. i want to hear what my body is trying to tell me. october is giving clarity but only through silence.

and maybe that’s what this season is all about. when the leaves start to change, it’s not just nature that’s shifting. our bodies crave a new rhythm, too. fall feels like a silent invitation to slow down, to ground ourselves and to get back to what matters. to fall in love with more warm things, warm foods, warm people. i always tell my nutrition clientS: every new season deserves a new rhythm. seasonal foods, different workouts, different clothes.. and if you try to force yourself to stay in last season’s patterns, you’ll always feel like you’re going up a hill. this is all a part of pivoting and shifting.

and maybe that’s why october feels even more silent for me. i don’t really want to talk to anybody right now. i’ve spent so much of this year giving myself away to everyone else. showing up, pouring out, stretching myself past empty. but as the year closes, all i want is to give myself back to me. the question that’s been pounding in my chest lately is: who am i uninterrupted? what would my life look like if i devoted my full self to my own healing, my own rhythms, my own peace, my own agenda?

and if i’m honest these questions scare me. bad. there’s a part of me that wonders: what if i give all of me to me and it still isn’t enough? what if i don’t hit the goals i’ve set? what if i fall short? this is why i’ve been leaning into daily and weekly tracking, not as punishment but as proof. proof that i’m showing up. proof that i’m moving forward, even if slowly. and still, i’m learning to release this layer of fear and pressure. nobody is coming to grab me and save me if i don’t get it right.. and maybe that’s okay. maybe it’s not about getting it right at all. maybe getting things right is a bit overrated. maybe it’s about releasing the fear at failing and remembering that even in the pauses, even in the silence, i’m still building a future that can be beautiful and fruitful.

when the seasons shift, our bodies crave different foods and rhythms. in summer, cold salads and fresh fruit feel light and energizing, but in fall, our digestion slows down and what we actually need are warmer, grounding meals. more roasted vegetables, soups, teas, foods that help us root. if you keep eating like it’s july in october, of course you’ll feel off balance. part of alignment is honoring these natural shifts instead of fighting them.

i’ve been a holistic nutritionist long enough (6 years) to know this: motivation comes and goes but systems and rituals carry us. it’s not about building discipline for the sake of feeling like you’re getting something done. discipline without alignment is force. what truly holds us together are the daily rituals. the habits we practice with intention, the patterns that protect our peace. drinking lemon water before coffee. making our bed first thing in the morning. tidying the kitchen before bed. walking after dinner to help with digestion. reading before bed. setting the alarm clock before we get too sleepy. these aren’t small things. they’re anchors.

this is also why i created the 12-week wellness year. i didn’t want to design another ‘challenge’ but instead i know how much we all need systems. a way to to divide the year into smaller seasons to focus so you actually have space to reset, reflect, and realign. seldom do new year’s resolutions work. they’re too heavy, too rigid, too far away. but 12 weeks.. she’s a cute girl. 12 week is long enough to create real change, but short enough to stay present. you don’t have to wait until january to start. you can begin again right now. a few of my clients are starting on october 1 to be done by december 24 but personally me, i’m going to start on octoebr 8 to be done by december 31st! right before the new year :)

for me, the next 12 weeks isn’t about hustling harder. it’s less about discipline and more about devotion. it’s about creating systems that support me, not punish me. a system is like a love letter to you focus. it gives you something to come back to when you feel scattered. without structure, even the best intentions crumble. but with the right system, life begins to feel lighter, more alignment, more possible.

and i don’t think i’m alone in this. i feel like a lot of us are tired. tired of being told to lock in. tired of being told to grind. tired of being told to push harder. october, november, december.. are the months where we slow down. this season is not asking us to squeeze the last bit of hustle out of the year. it’s asking us to soften into alignment. to get rooted. to create rhythms that feel warm. that feel nourishing. to meet ourselves halfway instead of trying to leap to 100 overnight.

so if you’ve been craving a reset, if you’ve been feeling the silence too, take this as your invitation. create a ritual this week that anchors you. write down one system you want to build that will support your peace. and if you need guidance, that’s what the 12-week wellness year was designed for. not perfection. not force. not grind. just straight alignment, rhythm. and consistency that actually feels good.

because at the end of the day, life isn’t built in the big dramatic breakthroughs. it’s build in the small rituals. the tiny systems. the ordinary moments we choose to honor over and over again. and if october feels silence, maybe it’s because silence is where we finally hear the truth: we don’t need more grind. we need more grace.